I need to be honest.
I've been lying a lot for the past couple of weeks. I can't even say how many times I've said that I am okay. I'm not. I am not okay. And I just want all of you guys to know that.

My hips are injured very badly again. I can't really walk and I am in an overwhelming amount of pain. I'm afraid. The last time this happened it was 3 months and the doctors didn't know what to do.

I just needed to let everyone know. No, I am not okay. Things are really bad right now. If you ask me, I might lie. But the truth is that I am not doing okay and I haven't been and I'm not sure when I will be.

I'm going to post this everywhere so that people know. I'm very sorry if I lied to you. It's not that I don't trust you. It's that I am scared right now. I'm not doing okay and it might be a little while before I will be.